In my studying, I got an anxiety/panic-disorder due to too much stress, because I worked too much. My current workplace is theoretically the same as in the past. While suffering under the anxiety/panic-disorder three years ago, I got through a hard time. I had to graduate successfully and keep this disease with me. The panic attacks utter like gastro-intestinal disease. I get the urge to visit a toilet constantly. I even did a therapy, which alleviated the symptoms, but never really cured it. When I'm stress-less, I feel close to normal, but when the stress rises, it antagonizes my mind. I feel sick and spent a lot time on the toilet.
I know, that it's very private what I am writing, but it's to give you a better picture of my life. Over the past 3 years, the stress sunk (due to graduation and save job), so that I could start having a close to normal life. On long journeys, I still have the behavior of not eating much or on vacations too, I couldn't keep it inside.
The situation came in which I had to travel around 600 kilometers twice a week, to get in a new project. Later I can work remotely, but still every 4 weeks.
At first I thought that would be no problem, but now I am feeling more and more stick and like returning to this breakdown I had 3 years ago. I was ridded from work and study for only 2 weeks, but I was sick a long time more.
It's not like I wouldn't work, it's just I feel really bad in this new situation - mental and physical. Except this part, I really like my job.
I that if I traveled less often it would be much easier to take. Forcing this possibility, I told only it would be in my interest, that I could work most part remote, but for some reason, the new supervisor (in the same company) wants me on-site, even if it's not really reasonable.
Should I tell him, the reason why I don't want to travel this often (not in detail) or should I just endure this (for me terrible) situation? How can I address this problem with my supervisor so I can avoid another breakdown while keeping my job?