So more than two years ago I revealed a vulnerable detail(something I thought I had done wrong) about how I got hired, to one or two people. One of those who heard my 'story' were doubtful that whatever happened was actually problematic. What he said was, "if HR hired me without making a fuss about my 'mistake', why bother talking about it now"?
Why did I say bad things about myself? It was a form of self-sabotage that came from feeling confident that I could live free of the rungs of office politics, yet feeling undeserved at the same time because I could not escape its effects.
Later on I found out that what I had done was not wrong, at least legally. The issue about my hire, though, is reminiscent of sensitive office politics, about previous company leadership and current leadership being in a conflict, and so forth.
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/articles/200811/the-8-laws-rumor-spread
According to this post, it says "The more you hear a rumor, the more you'll buy it, even if you're hearing that it's false".
Does my case fall into this scenario, where I'm better off not even denying or correcting myself? I sometimes hear that people don't really care all that much about me so I better not be so paranoid; am I really paranoid?