I feel really lonely at work. At times I really just feel like my coworkers are only interacting with me because they have to.
Here's the situation: I don't have any friends. So I think that might sometimes distort my view of work. Sometimes I expect that my coworkers are supposed to be my friends. I naturally go to all of the social events our company puts on and try to socialize every chance I get. Maybe that is off putting to some people?
Here are some examples: I worked on a project with two other people. When the project was done, my boss only asked my other two coworkers about the project. One of my coworkers was gone for 3 weeks! I literally did most of the project. I coded at least 70-80% of it. NOT AN EXAGGERATION. Like what the heck? Why was I not getting included in talks about it??? It's really aggravating to me.
I also had a person who is younger than me and newer to the company than me get put in a position to lead over me. That felt really demoralizing as well. I get it, that is just a part of life and sometimes that is how it goes. There will always be someone better. But it still feels horrible.
I see other people in the office hanging out and what not after work. But nobody ever asks me to hang out. How am I supposed to feel?
There are other small examples that I could use but it would be a little hard to explain.
I am the first one in the office every day and I put forth a lot of effort. I NEVER show up late or make excuses. Maybe it's a personality problem? I did have a boss tell me that I need to work on my presentation skills. And I agree with him. I can be a horrible presenter at times. Even though that's not my thing, I could probably work on it. I'm so tired of this.