I am a software engineer, and I have been in my current position for almost two years now. I am really happy with my job. I enjoy the work that I'm doing (for the most part), the hours are flexible, and my manager is great (friendly, understanding about mistakes, etc.) However, I still find the job quite stressful.
I have been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and the stress has much more to do with my mental health issues than with the job itself. I'd find a new job if I thought that it would help, but I'm aware that literally any job is going to stress me out, and there are enough positive aspects of this job that I don't want to change.
I haven't spoken with my manager about my anxiety issues. I can typically keep my composure while in public (though I'll occasionally go cry in the bathroom), and my performance reviews have been very positive, so I don't feel like anyone needs to know. Though I imagine that my manager likely picked up on my anxiety to some extent, since my voice/hands shake pretty badly when I get anxious, which is a fairly common occurrence.
The issue is that we've now been working from home for two weeks due to the current Coronavirus pandemic, and in that time I've only done a fraction of the work that I could normally get done. I am constantly so anxious that I can't focus on my work. It's at the point where I've spent the past two days crying almost nonstop. I don't know anyone who has gotten sick (yet), so I don't have a particular reason for being so anxious other than my disorder. I feel like I can handle the stress of the pandemic, and I can handle the stress of work, but I can't do both at once.
I don't know how to handle this situation. I've thought about asking whether I could use some of my vacation days now, but the pandemic could potentially last for months so it wouldn't be enough time (plus I wouldn't want to use up all my days before we've even finished April.) Should I talk to my manager, and if I do, what should I say? I don't want to outright say that I've barely done any work lately, but I'm sure that my manager will notice at some point and it might be better to just own up to it.
Thank you for any advice.