My boss has never taken the time to address concerns about my performance, until one day I expressed to him I had some confusion on my first assignment with big data. He told me then that he thinks that I have a learning disability.
It was soul crushing to hear. I’ve known of two particular coworkers who don’t favor me because of my inability to communicate due to my shyness. Mainly, the work I was doing for them was all administrative work and it was not challenging for me, but discouraging since I have longed for a technical role. I went to school for Computer Information Systems, and focused on cyber security, so doing admin work for a year was like digging my own grave...
My communication skills have improved now, and I no longer experience anxiety attacks when called upon during meetings.
My boss has paid a very expensive training for me, and had mentioned he plans to have me as a backup for our big data lead. The relationship I have with our big data lead is healthy, and I’m honestly happy working with our big data team.
I’m at a crossroads though, I don’t know if I should stay in this department. I think to myself, if my boss thinks I have a learning disability why should he push me towards a role in big data and pay training for me?
I plan to stay because I enjoy working with big data very much, but I start to lose my sanity when I think of what my boss told me, and whenever I have to deal with the other two particular coworkers I’ve had issues with, I still help them out with their work.
Any advice, leave or hang on?