Due to a variety of factors (mental health, the pandemic, some family issues, and uncertainty as to whether the job is a fit for me), I tried to resign. My manager was shocked, stated they value my work, and asked me to speak with HR first to consider my options.
It turns out one of those options is a leave of absence. It sounds like they are willing to let me depart (no pay but with benefits) for an indefinite period of time (I said I needed at least two months).
I voiced to HR that the reason I had planned to resign was that I’m just in a tough place right now where I’m not even sure what’s causing me so much stress, and it could indeed be the job. What if I come back from this absence only to actually quit? They seemed to think that was a possible outcome (I’m in an at-will state) and said they wouldn’t begrudge me that.
I just don’t know. It seems too good to be true. I’m also thinking having a fixed go-back date may not help my anxiety. But then again, it almost seems like I have nothing to lose by taking the offer of an absence. And maybe it will help; there are things I really like about this job, but it’s also been very stressful at times and has led to multiple panic attacks.
I’ve read through other leave of absence posts here on the site and my situation seems different. I have no reason to believe my employer is acting in bad faith (other than a general skepticism that most employers will do what’s best for the company, not what’s best for me) and I’m not taking this leave for anything specific — more a collection of stressors, and none of them have a specific end date like having surgery or finishing education do.
Hoping for some insight. Especially if there are downsides I’m not considering and should.