Recently, I decided to leave my current employer due to some reasons I'll try to hurry through:
- Toxic & abusive former manager demoted me without cause, I think this was due to scapegoating a botched timeline that I had warned them about repeatedly.
- This manager was fired by their boss after I spoke up--seemingly a validation of my hypothesis, but no official reason was given, other than an informal wink at me when it happened.
- New manager says I'll have to start over with them to get back on track, but no promises. It took me several years of extremely hard work to make it to that position, and I had been responsible for several successful and highly visible projects that this person was certainly aware of.
After several months and zero follow-up when asked, I had decided to seek out opportunities elsewhere, as I'd mentally accepted that I was never going to get back on track no matter what I did. There was some kind of personal or political reason blocking me, or at least that's all I've been able to gather without any feedback, which I've repeatedly requested.
So, not only is that quite demotivating in and of itself—effectively telling someone there's no future for them there—I have had the added time, energy, and frankly anxiety of interviewing at multiple opportunities during the standard work week, all while not wanting to take time away from my committed workload and mentoring others. I could do this for a couple weeks but it's starting to get to me.
I'm now in the final stages for several opportunities, and while I'm doing this I know that I'm going to intentionally delay my exit even further by a month or so, so I can get my final stocks vested.
Abstractly, I know that this is a fantastic problem to have, but I find it incredibly difficult to do even the smallest of tasks. I couldn't care less how this affects my new manager but I don't want to let the team down.
How can I stay motivated? Is this even my problem?