So I have been employed with my current company for about 6 months or so as a software engineer. This company is a Silicon Valley type technology company of a modest size.
Unfortunately, I ended up resentful from the level they brought me in as, so in many ways the resentment started almost from the very beginning when I found out what their levels actually mean. I was brought in at a level that was way below a level that actually corresponds with what I can do and used to do in previous environments. Basically a near junior level. I did not find about the nature of their leveling and how they choose to characterize people based on it until after I joined. It feels like a serious step back in my career and is pretty demeaning in reality.
I have not been rude or unprofessional to anybody. I have not caused any outages. I complete my deliverables. But I definitely have been very lazy, am only doing the bare minimum as of late, am not taking as much initiative, and am not being nearly as proactive nor am I really showing what I can actually do to others.
I would like to add that another part of this which precedes the laziness was starting on a team with a relatively inexperienced manager who chose to insult me from the beginning while refusing to provide specific feedback to improve after I had asked. Upon switching to a new team, the manager of the team and its lead chose to leave almost immediately, leaving a manager from another team who was forced to adopt it and an inexperienced team lead promoted to take place. Unfortunately, I understand that the context may not matter.
Given how much people talk about reputation, I’m concerned if the people here will start spreading rumors to other employers about how I’m a supposed ‘bare minimum’ kind of guy, and what will end up happening should I run into them again.
Ultimately, I want to know if I should tell my boss about my resentment or how I have been feeling to an extent so that he knows why he has not been getting my all. And so that an average or below average performance rating has some context to him rather than a perception of inadequacy. Would this be a good idea or am I not understanding this idea of reputation correctly to begin with and is it not even worth mentioning to anyone?