I was an excellent student in high school, but due to life circumstances after I graduated, I couldn't complete my college summer semester. So I had to withdraw. And in the Fall semester, I know it wasn't necessarily the loveliest decision but I also withdrew from three classes because I wasn't personally satisfied with the marks I was going to get. I had higher standards for myself, I went from being an 'A' student to 'D+'.
I had done practically nothing between late 2022 and until now... I've learned a bit of foreign language and worked on my computer science skills but it is frankly not at all the pace that I would've made in high school and not at all the pace I would've made with the time that I had.
How do I explain a wasted year? It feels so overwhelming to look at and demoralizing because I feel so... 'less' for it.
Now I'm trying to reverse my own mistakes by doing what I can now. I'm studying like it's my job, I'm going to look into volunteering, internships and capitalizing on scholarships soon enough but I'm not sure what I'll be saying about this gap to my interviewers. And yes I'm going to treat all of this from a way different approach, I know with a passion I'm not going to lose another semester again or waste any more time so I have confidence in myself--that is why I did voluntarily withdraw.
I know it maybe won't matter, the gap that happened after high school graduation, once I am halfway there on my associate's degree in foreign language and especially once I'm studying at a senior college in computer-science but I kinda need validation and guidance.
I have so much guilt and shame over this (something I did) that I don't know how I can look at my interviewer in the eye and say I'm worthy of x and y opportunity over other people.
Would people even care or?