First of all, I will tell something about me. I am not a gifted guy with a lot of intelligence and other talents. But if I am prepared, I can do really good (I have observed it, several times…), but if I am unprepared, the results are just average.
In first job, environment was very cool, no work load, easy-work. At that place, only I was able to perform very well. Other colleagues were not so intelligent (sorry to mention that) but I didn’t underestimate them. There I used to get respect, I had good friends and I used to be very happy. But, after a while, I decided to do some good quality work and also I wanted to change my domain, hence I switched to a new start-up company.
In my second job, people are very intelligent and hard-working and also enjoying. Now, the thing is I am unable to adjust here. As it is a startup, people are very less. It happened that sometimes I was not able to work properly (also, because I am new to this domain), I got scolded. There is no-one in my team of my age whom I can ask, if I get stuck somewhere, I struggle for it.
And then also, if I don’t get it, I ask to my mentor with hesitation. I hesitate here to ask questions. Sometimes, I fear that someone will scold me or something… so I have to study something at home (even at weekends) and then go to office. I fear to go to office. I am feeling like that I am above-average (since I am able to do easy to average tasks very easily ) but not good (unable to perform well at tough tasks) .
I know that I should act bravely, I am working on it. But still I am not feeling happy.
So, here are my questions:
- Is is better to be in work-environment where you are struggling to be good with little-respect or where you are already good, well-respected but not-struggling ?
- What should I do in my current situation?
- Is it that I will be only good at easy tasks and not tough ones?