I have around 7 years of work experience and recently I found myself terrified with group introductions. It has never happened before. I am dreaded with so much fear that I feel I am a total mess.
I am software engineer and joined a company 2 years back, thinking of it as my dream job. It has been almost 1 1/2 years since I had worked on a proper project and gradually my confidence and morale has declined. Most of the time I am assigned with non-important tasks and pretty much I finish it off in 1-2 hours and rest of the week I am idle. Once, I did get to work on a good project but I was disappointed that even when I was able to complete the project with best outcome my morale and confidence was and is still low. I guess I have lost my motivation, confidence and the enthusiasm.
I guess I have lot of free time that I have indulged myself in negative thinking that I am now having panic attacks of going to trainings or group introductions.
I am thinking of changing jobs but I am worried that I will carry over my existing mindset to the new job. I am feeling so low that I feel inferior to my colleagues when I know I am really good at what I do. I have been reading self help books and it is of no use.
How to break this habit? I am losing my health and sleep. I want to feel confident again.