So, I transferred to another unit because my SUP at the time was jealous of me and showed it. To make my story short, the new unit the Big Boss there was so nice to me. And then my old supervisor friend who is the Big Boss Buddy started poisoning toward me. I felt the Big Boss acting strangely toward me. As I am a paranoid human being. I acted weird and started avoiding the Big Boss and even refused to cover a case for her.
I have recently gotten a lead position promotion at another unit with the same company. I know this sound like am mess but hear me. I then found out that the Big Boss cares about me and wanted me to be part of her unit. to make my story short , she even looked sad that I left. Anyhow, she now has a supervisor position open. I want it , because she fair and kind person. I want to work for someone like that. I think she is still pissed with me because I saw her talking to my current Big Boss who made the joke of stealing me from her. My previous Big Boss was not very happy about the joke and looked pissed. I need to make a damage control. I made a bad choice taking this lead position. I have applied for the supervisor position and not been in this lead position for even a month yet. I want that supervisor position. My old Big Boss is friends with the Company Director who makes decision over the hiring. I was at a Christmas part at my current unit and she joined us. She never even looked up to say hi but the other day at the party. She looked up and smiled to say hello.
Obviously, I self-sabotaged my career because of my paranoia about my previous supervisor who has good relationship with these people. However, everyone likes me and I want this opportunity. I feel like I ruined my career. How do I do a damage control. As am overly stressed about this. They have not started the interviewing, this starts next week, part of me feel likes, I might get it and the other part says Nay .. you screwed up big time when you took the lead position but I was not aware the supervisor position was open.