I recently started a job at an organization I truly do love, but the job I was hired in for, not so much. It is a temporary position for 90 days (no permanent vacancy, they just need help in that department).
Here is some background information before anyone makes a judgment :) Ever since I was little (2nd grade) I have had severe anxiety and panic attacks. I was put in a special school 7th grade because it was so severe it was making me sick to my stomach and causing me to dry heave until I would puke in class. Very embarrassing. Fast forward...I made it through high school and last May I graduated college with honors with a degree in Human Resources. I thought "great, I have outgrew this anxiety/panic attack mess.
So I became a temporary employee at this company and got my first assignment in HR...I take the bus because the company location is about an hour and 20 minutes away...My first day I felt really nervous and panicky...I thought to myself "well it is just first day jitters, you'll be fine" and pushed through...day 2 the same thing...day 3: full on panic attack, sick to my stomach, shaking, crying, etc. I went to employee health and they prescribed me a medication and suggested counseling. I went and spoke to my supervisor because I was going home...she was extremely understanding and we spoke about the potential of me quitting. I told her I did not want a red mark on my employee file because once I get control of my anxiety (which I thought I outgrew and didn't) I wanted to still apply and be eligible to work there again. She told me under these circumstances she would make sure I would be OK to be rehired and eligible for a position and that she felt really bad for me and understood as she once had anxiety too.
I spoke to the HR department who was urging me to resign and go back into the pool or temporary employees to be reassigned. She told me I would still have to report I worked that job for a couple of days on applications to them to make my application honest. Now I worry if I do resign that any recruiter there will look at my applications and not even bother calling me to even see why I left so quickly. The HR rep said that I could explain in a phone screen, but not to try to explain anything on the applications in the future.
I am so torn on what to do...continue to feel sick and anxious while there or quit and get better and try again later on. I do have my old job still, so I wouldn't be unemployed.
Any advice? :(