I am working as a lead in software company. I have been given 2-3 projects to manage simultaneously. I have been spending more than 12 hours in a day. In short lot of work one after the another.
But what I am not getting is if I am that good then why there is criticism like
"you missed this",
"you missed that",
"we don't expect this from you",
"you are a lead someday you will be manager, think like that",
"this will not be good for you",
"you will be replaced if you do this again". Such comments making me uncomfortable and I see that people those are getting less work, better salary but living more peaceful life. They simply need to say "no" or use any escapism funda like "fever", "guests at home" etc.
Also I am worried that on "D" day i.e. appraisal meeting, they will pick above things and rate me poor. But now they say
"you have potential",
"you have proven" so we are giving more work to you.
Or may be I am thinking wrong, what all this is signaling? Should I also behave like others.