I had a look at this post, and it is helpful but i would need some more help, i started in a company and currently on my probation. I have mismanaged everything and i been out of job for many months, since i got this job and i been working (although my progress is slow), i been consumed by a project which is very much time consuming and my other plan which was suppose to start 20 days ago, it delayed and i have to give it on deadline. A lot fall on me being very slow and a programmer who is weak (IMO), till now i have pulled the job but now i feel i am causing business damage (as my deadlines are way overdue), and being only person who has more experience in this field than anyone else, even i feel worn out due to people worked here before me. So it come down to the following
- I am way behind my deadlines (new or old)
- I fall behind deadline is because of my limited knowledge or rusty skills
- I have things on my hand which i think i cannot do (but all programmers face something new)
- My boss think i am good but i don't (i know he is pep talk as he knows i am slow)
In this situation, what should i do, how do i start a conversation with my CTO or manager that can tell him, i am having trouble in work and i think it might be good idea to internally move me to another position, maybe junior? or let me go as i don't want to be fired (as it sounds bad). Keeping that in mind, i am thinking i might be jobless again for couple of months, due to my low portfolio and old skills, but TBH i don't know what and how to do.