There has been no progress in my professional growth since I started my current job. After begging and struggling, I finally got a project into the mainframes healthcare domain.
I find this project not only complicated, but there's nothing new or current to learn in that. In spite of that, I started to learn it, but I didn't find my team very supportive. Below are the highlights:
- My lead never assigns any tasks for me.
- I make effort, but there has been no progress in the way people opine about me. They think I am a failure capable of doing nothing.
- It so happened that I was reviewing the requirements documents for the application enhancement, and I forwarded them to my office e-mail address from the client's machine, since my machine usually gets stuck or doesn't work. My colleague literally shouted at me about this, and went desk-to-desk to humiliate me. My manager and my leads scolded me, saying that I have come from a small company where they may not be following any ethics, but ours is a big company. I was warned that one more mistake would cause them to get rid of me.
Thereafter, my lead hasn't assigned me much work. But when she does, I try to complete it but somehow with the application I am usually stuck, and I need help.
My peers straight away refuse to help (but this happens occasionally not every-time. I do get help, but not for everything.)
My manager now has told me to keep him posted about my task status every two hours. I have told him several times I don't get tasks that frequently. What should I do then?
I have lost my confidence, efficiency, and my biggest hope which used to be my performance at my job. Is there a way I can salvage this career choice?