I'm in a bit of a rut as I just came back from the medical assessment for my job and due to my depression, the medical officer did not sign my medical form which I was told was needed to complete the hiring process. She asked for more information and mentioned she would make the decision then.
I'm extremely upset and mostly angry that I disclosed my mental health honestly and I don't know if I should tell my employer before going on with the medical officers wishes or if I should keep my mouth shut. I am also considering making an appointment with another doctor to see if I can override this medical exam and just not disclose my mental history there. I'm baffled that my depression has caused this problem as the job I am supposed to do is close to my counselling services and I still have the opportunity to leave and come home as needed from the job.
Overall, I'm confused as to what to do. My employer did send me an email saying that she got my security clearance and would hopefully get my official offer letter to me soon. She made no mention of the medical exam. I'm worried I won't get this job, which would be terrible as this is something I've wanted to do for a very long time and was excited to work in this area of research. I finally made a break in the industry and now I am afraid of being turned down despite being a good worker and learner.
Any advice or comments are much appreciated. Thank you.
Edits/Updates:
Sorry everyone for the delay in addressing your questions. I will be working in Canada for a federal scientific agency in one of their provincial branches.
For clarity, the medical officer is not affiliated with my employer or place of work, she is a doctor hired to do these medical checkups on all potential government employees. She mentioned that she couldn't sign off on the "field work" aspect of my form, and because she is not familiar with what I'll be doing, she is taking precaution for if I go to a remote location with no proper health services available for me. She also mentioned that if it was a software job (which most of it is), where I work at a desk and am able to leave or go home at the end of the day, then I was fine. I did mention to her that despite my mental health, I'm still able to complete schoolwork, and I'm not on academic probation or failing classes to give her an idea of how it affects my daily life. She requested more information from my counselor and doctor about my current state. I'll be emailing my counselor today.
My employer keeps mentioning that she hopes to have the official offer letter coming in within the next few weeks... In the initial offer email, she did not mention the condition of the medical exam, only the security clearance, which I have now passed.
Further updates:
Thanks again to all that have replied, it has meant an immense amount to me. I was really worried about this opportunity slipping through my hands, because I truly felt it was a great time to really turn things around in my life - school is pretty meh right now, and I've never really gotten a chance to explore something like this, and I've always really wanted to. This week had been pretty wild with exams and final assessments for college and this really wasn't the cherry on top of the sundae I needed.
I emailed my counselor and we was willing to work with me to provide any positive info to the medical officer, and she was really kind in letting me talk through my own thoughts on my abilities for the work. I'm speaking with her over phone to work through writing out a letter for the medical officer detailing my counselor's thoughts and experiences with me and how she thinks I'll cope.
As well, my employer told me that most of my work will be software, however, near the end of the work term, I'll have the opportunity to do some field work for 1-2 weeks on the weekdays only. I think I'll present this info to the medical officer and see if she'd be willing to re-do the assessment before the field work time and see if she changes her mind (I'm still going for counseling in the summer, so hopefully that helps). From what my employer told me, I think I have a choice to do the field work, and they will accommodate me if I choose not to (although, I do want to experience that, but the point is, I don't think this medical assessment will prevent me from getting this job.
Thanks again for everyone's advice and for listening.