I started a new job 2 weeks ago in a recruitment company, I took less money and more hours with the hope of getting more progression and commission over time. However, since the day I stared I've been overwhelmed. Every day that I'm at work I feel sick and when someone talks to me I just want to cry. I don't enjoy the role. I don't think it's for me in the slightest. It's unethical and generally doesn't fit my personality. I used to love my previous job but I did have reasons for leaving, their staff turnover was ridiculously high and the manager was hard among other things but it did not make me feel like this.
Yesterday I got to work and the closer I got the more I started crying until I parked my car and had a panic attack, I called my boss to inform him that I wasn't feeling well and that I'd got to work but need to go home. He said thank you for letting him know and 5 mins later he called me back asking questions about whether I'm enjoying the job, I was so panicky I couldn't breathe and I told him I was finding it extremely hard and felt the pressure since day 1. He said it may not be the career for me and told me to take yesterday and today off to have a think. Yesterday I visited the doctor and was told I had anxiety and given Lorazepam medication but I'm not in a situation I feel is impossible to get out of. I spoke to an ex colleague about my previous work place and she said that they are still looking to fill my position and that she will speak to the new manager tomorrow (there has been a new manager since I left) My options are;
1) call my boss tomorrow and tell him I quit and hope I can get my old job back (I don't think going back is an option as it makes me feel physically sick and he told me I'd need to go back with me 100% effort which I can't do) and risk having no job
2) go back and put myself through hell trying to stop myself crying and having another panic attack
3) request a note from my doctor getting me out of work for 2 weeks due to my anxiety to give me time to think
I cannot decide what to do. I know it's hard to get another job when unemployed but I feel I can't go back: when I think about it I go into panic mode. I have until tomorrow to decide and any suggestions would be appreciated.