I just interned for a company and have had a horrible experience. This is my first internship and my supervisor was not good at managing me (with one of the C-Suite and HR even telling me that he was not a good supervisor. This is his first time supervising someone).
I have received my evaluation back and I feel absolutely horrible about myself and scared. In this evaluation, my supervisor believes I'm not ready for the workforce. A lot of thee criticisms include not understanding how to do tasks when first told (tbh he's not very clear so I have to ask a second time), asking too many questions, and acting in unprofessional behavior (I do believe I was unprofessional. There was a point in time where he didn't give me any work at my internship cause he thought I wasn't smart enough to handle it by myself. I got very quiet the next few weeks and I can understand that I need to change my behavior for that).
To go in depth,my supervisor throughout this entire process has just not been supporting me well. He expected me to understand how everything worked the first day and expected that I would be smart enough to handle everything myself (direct quotes...). He didn't really train me on what to do. He was very busy (understandable) to the point where he didn't want to train me. He didn't know half of what I was supposed to be doing during the internship and gave me nothing to do some days... He sort of didn't plan out the project I had to do for my internship (HR was a bit annoyed by that when I told him my supervisor didnt give me a project). Lastly, he just felt like I lacked knowledge in the field I was interning in (this is a business oriented internship) because I was making mistakes and asking questions (he told me that I needed to focus and stop screwing up...).
I understand that he is busy and this may not give the full picture, but I feel absolutely horrified and scared. Throughout the internship, I struggled and had errors. I had to ask a lot of questions cause I was scared I was going to mess up everything. Everyone from my work came in with high expectations cause I came from a "good university" and expected me to know how to do everything (quote by supervisor again...). But now this has really scared me. My supervisor believes that I'm just a horrible worker and although I understand it has to do with his poor management, I am scared there's a problem with me. Do I ask too many questions? Am I just a slow person? I'm scared that maybe I'm not smart enough for an internship. Can anyone offer tips/advice? This experience has really messed me up, especially the evaluation. I know it may be hard to explain the situation cause none of you all are there. But I just really wonder if there's also a problem with me??? I spoke to HR about this at the end of my internship and he does agree that my supervisor is not a good manager. But at the same time, Im also scared that I"m just not good at just the workforce in general... I ask too many questions. I'm not good enough for real tasks. I'm not independent enough... I'm also scared how this will affect my future job applications if HR calls them for a reference... Can anyone please help?
My goal is to avoid impacts to my future career. What should I do in order to avoid that?