I'm a new grad 6 months in to a startup job and am loving it, but I don't think they are loving me. I was hired mainly for my skills related to subject A but I have been tasked mostly with subject B. I don't mind but my performance has been much lower than my colleagues'. I think it was acceptable starting out but there is less tolerance for it now. My team is small and collaborative and there have been numerous times where it is evident I don't know something I'm expected to know. I'm employed at-will.
- Several technical mistakes in my work that cost small amounts of time and money. Nothing disastrous but due to haste (there is a lot of time pressure) or lack of understanding, mistakes that appeared careless or unprofessional. Other tasks of mine take longer than expected.
- Unusual standoffishness from my teammates recently and especially my supervisor, who would have the final say on my firing. Most of them get along. For whatever reason I don't seem to have built the same relationships, and whether that should matter or not it isn't helping me.
- We are actively hiring for people skilled in both subject A and subject B. I was not informed of the hiring or given access to the hiring documents (everyone else was). Asked for access and it was granted after a small delay, could be irrelevant? The job opening was posted less than 2 months after I joined.
- Someone I know on another team recently got fired without any warning, and in their opinion without sufficient reason. I've heard mention of others who got fired but I don't know more details about them. So people do get let go here relatively frequently.
So, am I about to get fired? Does it seem like they are thinking about it? I have a one-on-one soon, any suggestions for what I should say there? I'm very interested in continuing to work for this company and don't want to jeopardize it.
- Its a small fast paced startup, we are doing subject B because that is what we need. We don't need A right now so I can't show my skills there.
- I could try harder but am already working long hours so I hope I don't need to put in even more time.
- I could be a naive anxious new grad making a mountain of a molehill. If so, suggestions for how to not do that?
TLDR: This is a very high performance job and I have been underperforming for 6 months. I am concerned for my job, can I do anything about it now and if so what?